Chapter 2 => I miss you..

If I could return to the past,
I promise I would not let you cry,
I would cry behalf of you.

If you have had forgotten the past,
even me,
never mind, I would be the one who remembers.

Because I loved you,
and you know I really do !!

And so I just wanted you to be happy all instead of seeing your tears drop..

If you do not love me anymore,
never mind, I do love you still..

Even if you were just fooled around with me,
never mind, I do not blame you..

Stupid? yes, I do..
Stubborn? yes, I do...
Loving? yes, I do!!!!

Because love has no reason,
no why, no explanation, insane, crazy, no logic, just like a drug...

At this moment, under the moonlight shadow,
I just wanted to tell you,
I miss you...so much...

but I have had promised I will not disturb you anymore...

Let me be the only one who has to suffer...
I know you have nothing more to talk with me,
but I have tons...
Sorry that I loved you...

I just do not know why do you have to leave me...
It feels like nothing really matters anymore..
When you were gone I can not breathe..
And I know, You never meant to make me feel this way, right?
This can not be happening =(

Our memories and happiness,
were the most precious present from you to me....
It could not set me free as well....
Besides that, I have learnt so much from you also...
Make me miss you so much and never letting go,
even I have tried so hard...

BB, I will pray for you everyday and please do remember you have got the smile that could light up the whole town,
so what you waiting for?

Do not always act cool, please smiles ^_^V
Your beloved yen~

Chapter 1: Goodbye My Love

Its been such a long long time I dint touch up with my blog, yearss.
Well the purpose that I created this blog at the very first was because of my first boyfriend. We have been together for almost 7 years time, it is not a short time, in fact that relationship will always be in my mind and I thought that we could spent our lifetime together forever. Yet forever is nothing but just memories for now.

But nothing comes without price, until I have decided to futher study in Kuching. our relationship lose by long distance. It was really killing me =( But I know I have to stay strong and keep moving forward because the world is still full of colours and awaits me to discover.

Therefore, I have met my 2nd boyfriend in my University, once again Im falling without control. I thought that we could be together until end of the world comes.
I was too naive, even I had given all I can and tried my best to keep our relationship up, his family just never understand me even banned me from being with him for no reason, my friends who are his sister also just hurt me so bad...

But the worse part is that my boyfriend he just gave up me like everything does not matters to him...
I was just nothing at all after all.

The truth I have to face is that, he just does not love me anymore, he is moving on, and so I have to forced too...

Our date of anniversary also is the date that we ended,
It seems like, LOVE does not belong to my world.
What can I do is just pray for them, be happy all the time...